Yea man! My trip's tonight. I feeling so high man! Lol. My stuff have been packed finish more or less. Yup. As i mentioned in my previous post, my flight would be at 1am tonight. That means i have to check in at about 10pm or 11pm. Blah. My mom told me that it would be a 5hr flight from singapore to australia. So that means by the time i arrive in australia, it would only be 6am! Lol. Sky still dark! Yup. Then we'll start the trip with a city tour of Perth. Blah. The rest i dunno le.
Hmm..i'm planning not to sleep in the airplane, so that means i have to conserve energy during the day. I am planning to take an afternoon nap, provided i can fall asleep. Lol. Then i also want to play bball before i fly off, but it seems that my friend is not free for bball today. Sad case lor. So i must wait till after i return from my australia trip before i can play bball again. Nevermind. At least i played bball during PE yesterday. I played in 2 matches. The first match was a 2-on-2 match. Wing hong and me against Faizan and Benny! Yup. I also dunno who won coz no one counted the score. It should be a draw ba. All i know was that for my team, i was the main one who was scoring and on the other team, it was mostly Faizan who solo all the way. Faizan's goals were tyco lor! Yup. Then on my team, i was the one who scored most of the goals, because Wing Hong kept passing the ball to me! Then i no choice but to shoot the ball la! Lol. Then we stopped the game and remaked the teams. This time, three guys from the 'china gang' joined in. They were Jun Jie, Te Wei and Li Yuan. So it's the three of them against Wing Hong, Faizan, Benny and me! Yup. The china guys are supposed to be pro ma. Lol. So we just played. Seems like our team was on the winning end coz they played in relax mode.. Then for our team, Faizan solo lor! Luckily he scored in a few goals, or else i would be really angry. Firstly, i dont like people who solo and don't pass the ball. Secondly, i don't like Faizan's shooting style. The way he shoots the ball is very weird lor. All his goals look so tyco! Whatever la.
Hmm.. See, i get carried away with my talk on bball. Lol. Sorry for talking so much crap about bball. I dunno what else to blog about leh.. Nevermind. My next post shall be on 4th of June. Yup. I'll try to blog on 4th of June when i return from Australia. So, for the time being, my blog would be empty without new posts for a long time.. Nevermind. When i return, i shall blog about all the fun fun stuff that i did in Australia! Yup! Okay..take care people, and enjoy your June holidays! =D Argh!!! I wanna blog but can't! Parents don't let me use compt! Nevermind. I shall post tmw, i promise! Wait for my post tmw people! Haha! Ohayo! Ohayo means good morning in japanese! So now, i'm greeting everyone good morning! Morning, morning! I'm in much higher spirits now, coz i got my phone and i straightened out my thinking! Three cheers to me! Yea! Hmm..today is sunday right? Yea, it is. On this saturday, i would not be in singapore already! I would be on my flight to australia le! Yea man! It's a 1am flight. Cool eh? Haha. Happy! I'll go there and bring back loads of gifts for you people okay? Haha! It's a deal man!
Yup. I would be going to Perth. The temperature there now is said to be 4degrees at it's lowest and temperatures can be expected to drop. So, i can expect it to be cold, cold, cold! Haha! Yup. So my mom would need to buy thick clothing like winter jackets, gloves..blah blah. So cool yea? Haha. Although i've been to australia two times already, i still feel excited this time coz my uncle in australia would be bringing us to many places of interest! Haha! I'll post about that once i come back to singapore after my trip. And oh ya, i would be returning on the 4th of June actually. Hmm..let's see.. For places that we would be going to, i'm still kinda unsure. But i heard from my uncle that we may be driving a caravan and touring almost the whole of australia except the south! Cool yea?! Haha! Travelling about 3000 over kilometers in just a few days! So cool!! Then i'll take many many photos that i've been to and post them on my blog! Yea man! I heard that i would be going to many national parks there and also would be crossing a desert! Haha. Aiya, after my trip then i only post about what i've done in australia ba. Hope you people have a happy and enjoyable June holidays just like me too! Cheers! =D Hey. Today was a fine day okay? I went to school feeling light-hearted. Yea! Coz i got a new hp and that made me happy. First lesson for today was history. But the history teacher didn't even came in today. Instead, my form teacher came in. She did some admin tasks, like verifying our exam marks for all the subjects. I got to know my class position and level position too. Dont bother to ask me what mine is, because i suck. Class position was 28 lor! So bad. Benny beat me by one position!! Argh!
Yup. After that, we still had one period left. So, the teacher allowed us to have one free period! Yea man! Happy! So i sat with my group of friends and talked crap..blah blah. There were the five of us. Shaun, Aaron, Zinn, Benedict (Benny!) and me. We talked about all kinds of lame stuff la. Then we talked about the trends in primary shcool last time. From flip erasers, spinning country flag erasers..to Beyblade, CrushGear, and Tamiya cars! LOL! Lame and childish talk!! But who cares man? We were having fun talking about all these lame stuff. Yup. Then each of us even agreed to bring our beyblade on Monday just for fun!! Haha! (I cant even remember where i placed mine!) So lame lor!! Just imagine five sec3 guys comparing beyblades! Haha! We would be the joke of the class man! Haha! Whatever. Then we also agreed to go buy Tamiya cars together after school on Monday!! Haha! Seems like we're going back to our primary school days man! Haha!
Then school continued as usual..blah blah. Then noel asked me to go with him to Plaza Singapura after school. I sian sian and didn't want to go home early to face my parents, so i go with him lo. Then he told me that he was gonna meet his female church friend there. At first i felt like an extra, but after that okay lo. Noel dumb dumb one leh. Dont even know where to suggest places to go. So in the end is the girl suggest. Lol. I say him dumb dumb lor! Haha! At first, he was so afraid that he would screw up, but in the end, it turned out fine. He was okay la. Pretty well done. His friend is from some dunno what CHIJ school. Oh ya. Is it the CHIJ St. Joseph dunno what school?? I really dunno. Just some girl's school in Sengkang la. All the CHIJ school student's uniform all the same de. Blue and white one. Lol. Blah blah. I walk behind noel and that girl like some extra. Haha! Then i feel bad leh. Like some idiot disrupting their meeting?? I dunno la. Whatever. Then after the girl went home, i took bus14 with noel. He kept telling me that he screw up. Screw up on what huh? Nothing went wrong ma..lol. I then told him about some things that he didn't notice and what things he did right and wrong. Yup. I learnt my mistake. NEVER make a girl angry. Haha! No offence to girls ar! So i told him that i could see through her actions and hear from her words that she wanted to go home already, but he didn't notice. I signalled to him lor, but he didn't get the meaning across. Lol. So in the end, the girl had to say that she had to go home. It's kinda obvious la. She said that she wanted to go home to use computer, then she said she wanted to go home watch tv. Lol. Noel didn't get the hints. Must be he too engrossed talking ba. Haha. It's normally the 3rd party that will notice all these small small details. Haha. Whatever la. Then i went home and almost got scolded by my parents for arriving home late. Past dinner time ma. Nevermind. That's my fault. Blah. Then here i am blogging lor. Talking all this crap here. Lol. Okay la. You people must be sian of my post liao la. Ok. I shall stop here for today. Take care everyone! All my exam results are back. I'm not proud of any of them at all. Although my chinese, 'E' math, and 'A' maths all improved by 20plus marks since the common test, my parents want more! They are siao. Want my average results to be at least 60 marks. Hey. I'm in TK okay? The pressure that they are giving in my school is hell. Giving us 'O' level type of questions to prepare us for next year. Hell man. I dont wish to disclose my results too, coz they are shit. Yes, I really mean shit. Nothing to be proud of at all. But who cares man? I am also beginning to give up on myself. No motivation to study hard. My parents promised me a new phone if i studied hard and got an average of 60. Maybe for some smart kids, it's easy. But come on man, your son here is DUMB. How can you expect him to get such high grades?? Wait long long la..
So i studied like hell for my exams anyway. I managed to improve my chinese, 'E' math, and 'A' maths. 20 to 30 marks leh! That's so much lor. Then i already put in my best effort (i think..) but i still cant achieve it. I am so damn pissed. All my motivations gone. While others are happy about their good results, i am in some corner cursing myself why i am born STUPID. I hate it. Hate everything. Cheer up? Nah. Not when i have bad results. Happiness doesn't exist on the far side of distant mountains. It is within you, yourself. Not you, however, sitting in idle passivity. It is to be found in the vibrant dynamism of your own life as you struggle to challenge and overcome one obstacle after another, as you clamber up a perilous ridge in pursuit of that which lies beyond.

Where can we find happiness? Happiness is not found in a tranquil life free of storms and tempests. Real happiness is found in the struggles we undergo to realize our goals, in our efforts to move forward.

Stay happy always! =D Don't be the defeated me. Move on. Cheer up. I still have other friends to crap around with right? Haiz..no determination and stuff to move on. I'm becoming like benny.. He says i'm 'emo kiah' right?? Haha. Seems that he has been very emo these few days too. Could it be because of his exam results? Hmm..heard he failed quite a few subects. Somemore his mom is a teacher in my school leh! Wonder how stressful that must be. He seems much quieter these days too, just like me. Haha. See, both of us quiet guys get along with one another well. Hey benny, no offence ar. Hmm..cheer up? I'm trying my very best to cheer up. Trying to crap around with my friends, but once i reach home, the emoness starts again. Haha. So, i'll try to keep myself occupied in any way. Even doing stupid stuff.
Yup. I just got a book from noel today. No, it's not really a book actually. It's just a stack of notes. He seeemed to have got it from his friend. It's called 'Basic Military Training: A guide on how to survive your first days.' Haha. But it really isn't about military stuff. It's just a fake cover page. Talks about emotional stuff la. As in how to deal with all kinds of problems with family members, teachers, and friends. Hmm..teaches you techniques how to think differently from other people and act differently. Yea. Then i also discovered the many stupid things that i did which made others really angry. Realised my mistake and hopefully i would not repeat them again. Haha. Fifty pages long leh! And i took 2hrs to read finish it! Haha. No choice la, since noel want s it back tmw. yup. Actually, those notes was written my a fellow student from my school and my cohort. So profound lor! He pro la! Must have lots and lots of problems and experiences to overcome them. Hmm..nothing much to post about today. I just wanna thank two people who have tried very hard to cheer me up! Unfortunately, they are both not from my school. Thanks anyway. Empty is the word used to describe how i am feeling right now. I feel so empty like there's a hole in my heart. You may ask me what caused this emptiness. My answer is simple. I'm someone who doesn't like to get angry and can't stand to see others getting angry or in misery. I will feel guilty or bad for no reason. Dumb mentality that i have, but can't help it. Why must people live in anger when it does not lead to happiness? Why must people cause suffering and misery to others? Everything's my fault and i don't like it. So what if i'm sorry for the things i have done? I'm not forgiven my others. My parents, my teachers and now my friends. Why is my life so screwed up? Forget it. Let me just quit. Hey. I'm feeling so down okay? I just feel damn emo. Seems like the world is crashing on me. Okay. Firstly, i am angry with myself. Why must i do stupid things to make others feel irritated or angry? I hate myself for bringing misery to others. All i need is someone telling me that you have forgiven me. Tell me that i'm forgiven. Ya. I'm hating myself for all these. Why cant we just forgive and forget? Living a life full of hatred is painful. Yea. I opened up to two of my friends today. I just poured out my problems, but they cant seem to find a solution for me.
This was an sms message that i got from someone. If that someone reads this post, i hope that he/she would follow this guidance that you sent me.
'Let go of anger - it is an acid that burns away the delicate layers of your happiness. Maintain your composure under any circumstance. Smile and live the day fully.'
Thanks for the message. I'm angry with myself, but so what? I'm more concerned with others being angry with me. I'm just the happy-go-lucky chap who wishes for everyone's happiness. I must learn to forgive myself first, before others will forgive me. 'Quit it. don come. don even think about coming. quit it now. don text back.' These words are enough to kill me. I know it's entirely my fault okay? I'm already feeling very guilty. Plus the message that you sent me, i'm going nuts. Words can inflict more pain than physical harm. Maybe you dont know the pain behind the words, but i'm already feeling very remorseful. My fault. Sorry if i made you upset after reading this post, but please understand. Hope that you will forgive me and we can remain as good friends. Yes? Hey. Madness seem to be coming over me. What's wrong with me huh? I seem to have become some annoying pest popping up at your door for no reason. Forgive me okay? Maybe coz i'm just too bored with nothing to do at home. I rather spend my time rotting away with you then stay at home and rot. Haha. Sounds dumb eh?
Hmm..oh yup. Exams are over for me! What a relief! Hey da shi, you said that you're gonna go for a major make-over after the exams?? Hmm..be yourself okay? Don't change too much till i can't recognise you. Haha. Actually, I like it the way you are now. But if you really wanna have a change in style, suit yourself then! I'll support you in whatever you do provided it's not a dumb decision! Blah. I'm talking so much crap here. Haha. You seem down just now earlier this morning and afternoon. So this post is going all out to you today, just to cheer you up! (i hope..) Also, I wanna thank you for helping me pick this cute blogskin yea? Haha. Don't forget, I'm that super big FRIEND and big FAN of yours! Jia you! =D Today is the last day of exams! Yea man! My Mid-year exams are finally over!! Blah. I have all the time in the world to crap around now! Haha! Post-exams madness! Haha! Madness already started today after my exams! Wee! After exams, i walked around like some idiot for two whole hours! Walking around in circles.. Gosh! Hmm..all for some dumb reason i guess? Yup. Haha. Nevermind. Just imagine some person who suddenly pops up at your door for no reason. Haha! Like some peek-a-boo surprise?? I dont think anyone would like it right? Ya. See, it's my fault. Just because the exams are over, i dont have to be overly excited and do dumb stuff right? Haha. Blah. Just laugh it off anyway. Hmm..that's all la. Will tag again another time ba! Jia you! =D