Hmm..what should i blog about? Okay. The past few days. I was emo again for the past few days. Just when i thought i had got over my emoness last week, it all came again starting on Monday.
Monday was a crap day la. I was feeling damn emo over dunno what stupid things. I guess the first reason was when i got back my physics quiz back. I got 1/10. What the hell?! Although it may just be a quiz, it really made me feel demoralised. Then i began to think back.. Think about the recent 'A' math level test that i got 0/25. That is another thing that made me damn emo. Lousy results making me feel that i'm useless and stupid. Anyway, yup. That was the initial reason. Then i began to see stuff and then i think think think about stuff then make me even more emo.
Then after school, there was 'A' math remedial. I didnt want to go for the remedial coz i had no mood for lessons at all. But Benny went, so i just tagged along. During the one hour plus remedial, other students were busy trying out the questions, while i was emoing. So i just wasted the one hour by just sitting down and not doing anything. People finished 7 questions, while i havent even started on one.. Yup. Then after the remedial, i went to play basketball with Benny and some of my sec1 friends. I just couldn't shoot properly la. I missed so many shots. Again, i felt very useless. Then i was like scolding everyone when i was playing bball. Dunno why la.
After bball, Benny, Yong Xi and I went to Lucky Bread again as usual. When i went there, i still was kinda emo and easily agitated over dunno what la. I bought my bubble tea and just when i was about to sit down, i guessed i applied too much pressure on the cup and it just burst! Damn. The bubble tea just splat out on Yong Xi and me! Yup. Then for the rest of the time when i was at Lucky Bread, i was just scolding Benny and Yong Xi for almost everything that they said. Yup. They knew that something wasnt right about me.
So i didnt want to go home actually. But i had no choice or else my parents would be very mad at me. My curfew was to reach home by 7pm actually. I entered my condo premises slightly over 7pm, but i did not go home straight. I was talking over the phone to my friend. Yup. Coz i felt damn emo and down and wanted to talk. So i went to another block far away from mine and went to the highest floor to talk. Talk talk talk till about 8plus. Then i went home coz i received an sms from my sis saying that my mom is very worried about me. Yup. Then i went home but it was quiet. I was emo, so i didnt talk to anyone and just did my stuff quietly and went to bed after that. Didnt have any scolding coz maybe my mom was too emo to scold? By the way, she cried. I'm really sorry to my mom for making her cry.
Then the next day, i arranged with my friend (the one who i talked to on the phone) to meet in school early in the morning to talk. Yup. We went to her 'emo spot' to talk. After the talk i did feel slighly better. So i went for my lessons trying to stay focus. Trying. Yup. But after a few hours of class, i felt kinda exhausted liao. Haiz.. Then the same thing la. Went to Lucky Bread with the same people and talk..
Then i arrived home like 5mins late. I wanted to apologize to her but when i did so, she started scolding me and blah blah. All i wanted to do was apologize coz i wanted some peace to myself. But my mom's nagging was just so unbearable. So i just went to a dark corner of my room to emo with all the lights off. Yup. So i just sat like that for almost an hour and i felt very sleepy. So i just went to bed.
Hmm..then this morning, i met up in the morning with the same friend who i talked to the day before to talk again. Yup. At first, i was feeling like how i was on Monday. But after some councilling and stuff and then i crapped around with friends, i felt better le. Okay la. I shall try not to emo le and carry out my mission of cheering up 3 people!

(P.S. Erm. Hey 'girl who i talked about' if you dont mind me revealing your name or you want to have a nickname, tell me. Coz it's kinda dumb typing 'some friend' everytime. People will be like huh? Which friend. LOL.)