Haiz.. Feeling very sian and tired today. Dont know why. Maybe it's because i have been thinking too much recently. I dont want to experience what i went through last year again. I dont want to get distracted and not concentrate. But it's difficut.


Sometimes, i just hope that i dont quarrel or piss off that someone. Coz when i do, i'll feel damn guilty about it and it results in me thinking and emoing.. Then i wont be able to concentrate in class even though i'm sitted in the first row! Anyway, i had so many regrets last year. Not doing things that i wanted to do and wasting a hell lot of time.


And one thing i dont understand is why you always so busy! You seem to be occupied with things 24/7. Unless you're telling me that i'm not of any importance and everything comes first before me.. Anyway, that's how i'm feeling now. Maybe i'm just slow. Everyone asks you out first before i even get the chance. Come to think of it, i dont think i've even went out with you yet! Only once, with the accompany of your friend.. Anyway, i am really sorry for cancelling the previous time that we were supposed to go out. That was way back in december and i had no choice coz my whole family went overseas.

Anyway, i really wanna make it up to you. But i dont even get a chance coz you always seem so busy. Maybe you're just always that busy, or

Maybe i just cherish you more than you cherish me..