Yea! This is my number 100th post! And for this special post, i shall post something kinda weird. It's something that has been troubling me or rather thought of recently. It has been at the back of my mind and i'm in a sort of mess. Gosh. And yea, for those of you who know me long enough. It's relationship problems AGAIN. Lol. So i shall talk about the four people who i am confused by. Yea, it's FOUR. Damn it. Of all numbers why four..


There's number one. She's been at the back of my mind and my heart for a long long time. I've known her for 5 years already. Same age. Different school. Same religion. I really enjoy myself when im with her. She doesnt fail to bring me smiles. But sometime around May last year, there has been a great rift between the two of us. Haven't really talked to her for about one year since then. And i wonder if she still hates me for what i have done. And yea, she's still my best friend.



Then there's number 2. I have known her for a few months now. Liked her before. From my school, sec2. There have been rumours spreading around the entire school about me and her. And i think even the teachers know. She's my eyecandy and i'm her eyecandy. Haha. I dont think i like her anymore, but whenever i am told that something bad happens to her, i'll feel bad and worry alot for her. I'll try my best to help her and go all out.




And yea. There's number 3. Known her for about a year. Different school. Sec 2 too. Haven't really talked much. Started talking to her more this year but still not much. I think i like her but i'm not too sure myself too. Is it just a crush? And now dunno whether she's ignoring me or what. And i guess feeling isnt very strong.




And last but not least, there's number 4. she's older than me. I care a lot for her but as a friend. There's no feeling now, but im not sure about the future. She's really very nice and would always sms and ask how im doing. Very caring person and very emotional too. I am her councillor at times and she's really grateful for it. I worry about her when she mutters about doing silly things and i will give her a helping hand if she needs it coz she really helped me a lot.



Okay done with my story telling. You still there and alive? Haha. Gosh. I'm feeling really emo now. Don't know what's the actual reason behind it. I just feel so empty. Plus all the emo songs in my blog are filling my heart with sadness. I feel like an empty shell. Can anyone out there cheer me up? Can anyone brighten up my day? Save me from darkness~~ Midyear o level chinese paper 1 and 2 today! Phew! It was quite simple! Both papers were a breeze for me. Hope i can score an A for chinese! Haha. Holidays already started but it wont be much of a holiday for me. Two weeks gone due to truncated lessons! So that means that i will only have about 2 weeks left. But i think i will spend the next two weeks studying or revising. But no matter how much time i spend studying, i will squeezeeeee some time for going out okay? Haha. Hope i have the time to go out with friends.


Let's all look forward to the holidays and fun! Haha. Midyear exams are finally over for me! I've turned to the slack mode now. Too bad for the sec4s man. The first o level paper starting in two weeks time! It's just oral, but i feel the stress!


I'm feel so much like slacking now, but i cant! Gotta chiong till the end of o levels! Haha. And yea, i got back almost all my results already. Not really good, but at least i did improve. And to those who called me 'stupid' the other time, i BEAT your marks! Haha.


Thanks to my months of hardwork. They paid off! And during the break after my exams, i discovered that i'm begining to fall in love with piano again! I just love playing those emo emo songs! Especially those from jay chou's movie, 'the secret'!



Lazy to go on blogging.. I need to sleep early to wake up and catch that special 6.50am bus43 bus! HAHA! 10/5/07- It's been one year



It's been exactly one year since 10/5/07. I miss the past but there's no way i can go back. I'm not brooding over the past, i just miss the times i had. After more than one year of the conflict between us, you're still my best friend. You're a very nice person. You're warm hearted, kind, generous and too much to name! It's all my fault that caused our friendship to be in this plight. We once aimed for the same school and university after o levels. I wonder if that promise still stands..


I'm not asking for us to go back to the way we were. I just hope to spend more time talking with you and spending time. I still remember you promised to teach me how to play volleyball. I bet you're an excellent volleyball player now. Remember the volleyball that we both liked and chose at parkway around february last year? The uncle at the shop told me that it was out of stock since june last year. But even till now, everytime when i visit the shop, i would still ask about the ball. I'm even willing to travel around singapore looking for it or paying a higher price. Sadly, i checked and it seems that there isn't any stock left in singapore at all. I would have to order it from japan.


I still remember that we made a pact to spend our june holidays last year together. I still have many many things to teach you! I remember that your holiday list includes golf, cooking, basketball, swimming and piano lessons from me!



We strived to enter soka university in america together. You said that you would work hard for a scholarship to get into the univesity. I wonder if all these still stands. I have so many things to tell you and so many things to talk to you about. But even on the rare occasions i see you, i avoid talking to you coz i dont wanna make you feel uneasy.


I know i'm in no position to ask for anything coz i was the one who did stupid things to ruin the friendship, but i just want to thank you for all the past memories you gave me. Remember the time when we went to parkway together to look at the volleyball? Remember the time when we went to the bedok interchange food centre for late lunch and i went around asking for a piece of tissue for you? Remember the time we spent a few hours touring around millenia walk, suntec and marina square? Haha. Thinking back, it all sounds kinda silly, but i didnt mind.




Your family is also a very nice and warm family. Your dad, your mom, your sis and you! I feel very happy everytime when i get the chance to go out for dinner or for a movie with your family. I gives me a very warm feeling.


I wonder how you're doing now. I guess you must be the same, going around spreading joy to others. Your laughter gas is just so contagious! I have changed a lot over the past one year whether it's for the better or for the worse. It's no one's fault. I just have myself to blame. Some things just cant be forced.. I really want to thank you a lot for the happy mememories you gave me. No matter how distant we may be now or in the future, i just wanna tell you that you're the best! Zzz.. I'm bored now and i know this is kinda lame, but i found 23 different languages of how to say ' i love you!' LOL..





(ENGLiiSH) ii LOVE YOU
(POLiiSH) JA KOCHAM CiiEBiiE
(FRENCH) JE T'AiiME
(HiiNDii) HUM TUMHE PYAR KARTE HAE
(CZECH) MiiLUJii TE
(SLOVAKiiAN) LU'BiiM TA
(iiTALIAN) Tii AMO
(UKRAiiNiiAN) YA TEBE KAHAYU
(GERMAN) iiSH LiiBE DiiSH
(CHiiNESE) WO Aii Nii
(GREEK) S'AGAPO
(HAWAiiAN) ALOHA WAU iiA Oii
(LiiTHUiiANiiAN) TAV MYLiiU
(KOREAN) SA RANG HAE YO
(JAPANESE) Aii SHii TE RU
(ROMANiiAN) TE UBSEC
(BOSNiiAN) VOLiiM TE
(ALBANiiAN) TE DUA
(FiiLiiPiiNO) MAHAL KiiTA
(SPANiiSH) TE AMO
(PORTUGESE) AMO TE
(ARABIAN) ANNAH BE HEBIC
(MALAY) AKU CINTA KAMU Midyear exams are FINALLY over! Cheers to slacking and going out now! Hope i'll do well so that i can prove everyone that i'm not stupid and so that i can get back my phone from stupid teacher. I hate the word stupid coz it makes you feel so lousy and inferior. But that's what all my friends call me whenever they see me. Too bad that i've to live with it. All because i broke the class record of being the only outstanding one with 'good' results. 'SO' good that i would have topped the class. And i so wanna get my phone back man. It has been almost two months already and teacher still haven't given me back my phone! Damn. She says i would redeem it back only with my improved grades. If i dont do well for midyears, then i gotta wait for after prelims before i get back my phone. Even worse! So no matter what i'll try to get it back soon!


And the holidays are coming! So many things i wanna do! But i cant do much coz my whole holidays are cropped up with lessons. Damn it man! Plus my family is going to thailand for a holiday without me coz of my lessons! Haiz. Maybe i should see it as a good thing being alone at home. Can go out all i want and enjoy life foe that 2 weeks.. Hee hee.


Hmm there's another thing. Today's the 8th of may. It's gonna be a one year anniversary in two days' time. For those friends who have known me long enough, you would know what happened. Something that caused great unhappyness in me and the darkness in my life. Haiz. But that's all in the past already. I've gotten over it and moved on with life. But sometimes those memories i had back then were some of the happiest moments of my life. No matter how much i miss the past, the events in the past are already over. I can only cherish it and think back about the happy times i had but i cant do much about it.


That's all for now. Lazy to go on blogging.. I'll update another time when i'm free then!