10/5/07- It's been one year



It's been exactly one year since 10/5/07. I miss the past but there's no way i can go back. I'm not brooding over the past, i just miss the times i had. After more than one year of the conflict between us, you're still my best friend. You're a very nice person. You're warm hearted, kind, generous and too much to name! It's all my fault that caused our friendship to be in this plight. We once aimed for the same school and university after o levels. I wonder if that promise still stands..


I'm not asking for us to go back to the way we were. I just hope to spend more time talking with you and spending time. I still remember you promised to teach me how to play volleyball. I bet you're an excellent volleyball player now. Remember the volleyball that we both liked and chose at parkway around february last year? The uncle at the shop told me that it was out of stock since june last year. But even till now, everytime when i visit the shop, i would still ask about the ball. I'm even willing to travel around singapore looking for it or paying a higher price. Sadly, i checked and it seems that there isn't any stock left in singapore at all. I would have to order it from japan.


I still remember that we made a pact to spend our june holidays last year together. I still have many many things to teach you! I remember that your holiday list includes golf, cooking, basketball, swimming and piano lessons from me!



We strived to enter soka university in america together. You said that you would work hard for a scholarship to get into the univesity. I wonder if all these still stands. I have so many things to tell you and so many things to talk to you about. But even on the rare occasions i see you, i avoid talking to you coz i dont wanna make you feel uneasy.


I know i'm in no position to ask for anything coz i was the one who did stupid things to ruin the friendship, but i just want to thank you for all the past memories you gave me. Remember the time when we went to parkway together to look at the volleyball? Remember the time when we went to the bedok interchange food centre for late lunch and i went around asking for a piece of tissue for you? Remember the time we spent a few hours touring around millenia walk, suntec and marina square? Haha. Thinking back, it all sounds kinda silly, but i didnt mind.




Your family is also a very nice and warm family. Your dad, your mom, your sis and you! I feel very happy everytime when i get the chance to go out for dinner or for a movie with your family. I gives me a very warm feeling.


I wonder how you're doing now. I guess you must be the same, going around spreading joy to others. Your laughter gas is just so contagious! I have changed a lot over the past one year whether it's for the better or for the worse. It's no one's fault. I just have myself to blame. Some things just cant be forced.. I really want to thank you a lot for the happy mememories you gave me. No matter how distant we may be now or in the future, i just wanna tell you that you're the best!