Am i dumb, stupid or what? It took me one year and two months before i finally found out something. Although everyone else seems to see what i cant see, i still dont actually really believe that it is true.

Is it possible that 'she' would like me? That thought never came across my mind and i totally ruled out that possiblity. I thought what she did was just because we were friends but i guess i was wrong. Maybe the reason why she ignored me was because she knew very clearly that i only regarded her as my best friend. Maybe she knew that there was no use sticking to me because she would not get anything out of me. Was that the reson why she avoided me for so long? Was it because you felt hurt everytime you see me and would rather cut off all connections with me?


I just realised everything yesterday when someone asked me. There were the 'signs' but maybe i was stupid enough to think that they were so insignificant. Am i a little too late to have only found this out now?