I think i've gotten about 75% of the picture now. I'm still kinda confused once in a while and dunno what's up with myself or with you. I dont think the problem lie with you. It's with me i guess. I'm not gonna say sorry or apologize here because i know you hate it. I dont feel good about that too. I guess you're still the same as before, going around and making new friends and making people laugh. It's your joyful and hyper attitude that i'm attracted too. Believe it or not, you've gave me much happiness in life and i've come to realise that i was a lousy son in the past and a lousy friend to many. Thanks for the memories you gave me. Although i hope that we are able to go back to the way we were in the past, i think it's kinda difficult. I still haven't given up on you yet and will not do so anytime soon. Although i've met many other friends after you, none of them can be compared to you and spread their joy as much as you can with your friends. You are an indispensable friend to me.


I dont want to be a loser who keeps invading your life, but i just want to let you know that deep down inside i still care for you and is concerned about you. I want you to know that i still haven't forgotten you as a friend once in a while and i hope you haven't forgotten me yet. Although we have not talked for a long long time, i'm sure the friendship can still be patched back if both you and i work on it. I dont wanna impose on you and i've tried various means to salvage the friendship. I think i shall leave it to you to decide what this friendship means to you. If you think it's nothing and its just a waste of your time, then tell me. But mind you, you're still that special friend in my heart and is someone who is indispensable.