Yea! I've finally gotten a job and started work! I'm currently working at parkway's fish and co. Come patronise my stall when you guys are free! Haha. =) Gosh. The past 2 weeks have been sort of a roller-coaster ride for me and i encountered many problems. Firstly there was the relationship problem which i kinda resolved. Next my close friend of four years, Noel faced some domestic problems which ended up in him running away from home.



The running away from home all began with a kinda stupid reason. Noel's dad asked his bro and him to clean up the whole house but ended up in them quarreling with each other. They quarreled to the extend where Noel's dad actually threw Noel's bro and him out of the house. Both brothers were very pissed off with their dad and it resulted in them running away from home. They were away from home for about 4 days and matters got worse when Noel's dad called the police to go on a man-hunt. Unfortunately or fortunately, on one of the days when Noel thought his parents were supposed to be out, the two brothers sneaked into the house to get some clothes and money but were caught from the back. And the end result? Both brothers are grounded from leaving the house for 24weeks! (Number of weeks= Number of hours since they left home)



During the period when Noel ran away from home, we contacted each other a lot and i even thought of housing him. This turmoil ended yesterday afternoon and before i know it, other problems started to surface.


Firstly, Noel told me about a problem of addiction that one of his friends had. I'm still racking my brains of his friend's case coz it's a tough one. I shan't disclose anything here coz it's a sensitive issue.


The second problem i'm facing currently is having an issue with my mom. We had a heated argument over housechore duties just as i was about to go out to meet my friend. Imagine all changed and you're ready to meet your friend when your mom asked you to clean the toilet. Damn. That feeling sucks but i guess i just couldn't hold back my anger. I flared up at my mom and vulgarities just came out of my mouth. This is the first time that i mentioned vulgarities in front of my parents. Anyway, my point is i've yet to apologise to my mom. I really owe her a big big apology. Shall find the right time to do it. Wish my luck! It has been a really tough 24hours on Tuesday. I've really been through much thinking these few days and i've decided to keep my cool. In the past whenever this kinda things happened, i would blame myself, blame the other party and everyone else. That's the old me and i think it's childish. Through these experiences, i've matured in my thinking and learned to be more sensitive to other people's feelings.


Instead of pestering the other party asking why she isn't replying me and pushing the blame to everyone else, i've decided to lead my life with a more positive attitude, hoping that there would be sunshine after the rain at the same time. I left her alone for quite some time and yea, i was right. After two days she sent me an sms asking whether i was okay. I'm doing fine and i really wanna thank her for her concern. I'm really glad that she's still willing to accept me as a friend and before long, we were engaging in conversations again. I apologized for being over-reactive the other time and instead of fuming with anger, she apologized to me instead for the sudden questions that she imposed on me the other day and the cold attitude she gave me. She's really a nice girl and although i may not be the right guy for her, i hope she'll find someone who truly cherishes and takes good care of her. I don't necessarily have to be with her. All i want is to see her happy and never shed tears. I feel that only someone who is capable to do that is worthy of her.



Thanks for the happiness that you gave me! I really appreciate it a lot! I shouldn't have. I really shouldn't have did it. Sometimes i wonder what's up with me. I once promised myself to bury matters of the heart deep down inside and never open up. I tried my very best and was determined to do it, but some unforeseen circumstances forbid me to do so. I tried so hard to suppress the feelings i had, tried so hard to keep my cool, but i just cant accept the recent turn of events. Maybe it's just me being over sensitive or a big misunderstanding, but whatever it is i'm already beginning to regret my actions.


I never got into a relationship before because i never trusted others. I couldn't be myself when i'm with them and i just can't accept rejection. I would rather choose to stay single than ruin the friendship and get rejected. I never had the courage to confess my feelings for fear that the friendship would come to an end. Perhaps if i waited longer and tried hard enough to suppress my feelings, all would fade away after some time.



I've come this far after so many years of school life, seen many of my friends getting in and out of relationships and i've always told myself that i would do my best to make my first relationship a good one. I kept telling myself that if i get into a relationship, i would devote myself to the girl wholeheartedly . My friends always see me as the 'Mr Nice Guy' and i always try all means to bring my friends happiness. I wouldn't mind even if it would be at the expense of sacrificing some of my sleep, time and money. I really dont want anyone to fall into the depths of emptiness that i used to be. It was so bad to the extend that i had to see a councillor so i feel that i can relate well to those who are facing problems. Whatever problems they may be, whether it's in your studies, work stress or relationship tensions, i always give others a listening ear. I've heard many different stories throughout the years and i'm really proud of myself for being able to help others getting out of the depths of darkness.



However this time round, i'm really utterly disappointed in myself. I can't even help myself now, so i'm really in no position to help others anymore. I thought that if i were to just learn from other's past failures and don't make similar mistakes, i would be fine. Sadly, this just doesn't seem to work out. It was all wishful thinking on my part.



I don't even have confidence in myself, so how can i fend for others? I won't fall into the depths of unhappiness again so you don't have to worry. Instead, i'll lead a happier life and continue to shower care and concern to all my friends- in the right way this time. Damn i hate Quizzes.
But this one is different coz it's interesting!
Tagged by Mark.

Okay, here goes:
Q1: The person who tagged you was?
-Mark Shi Guan Yu =)

Q2: Your relationship with him?
-Close Friend/ Ex neighbours!

Q3: Five impressions of him:
-Basketball mates, cool skateboarder, pro electric guitarist, pro drum major (whether in military band or rock band drums!), good buddy for almost 6 years!

Q4: The most memorable thing he has done for you?
-Hmm let me see. Changed me from a nerd to who i am? Thanks for all the words or advice too!

Q5: If he becomes your lover, you would...
-Please ah! He's a guy! I'm not gay okay!

Q7: If he becomes your enemy, you would...
-I dont think that would happen anyway coz he's such a good friend and nice guy. =)

Q8: If he becomes your enemy, he needs to improve on?
-I already said it wont happen!

Q9: If he becomes your enemy, the reason would be?
-Okay fine. He will become my "enemy" maybe over some stupid stuff -.-

Q10: The most desired thing you want for him to be?
-Strive on in life, whether it's in your relationship, studies or career in the future!

Q11: Your overall impression of him?
-One damn cool dude. Wish i could have half of your talent man.

Q12: How do you think others will think of you?
-I'm not sure. Like me or hate me, that's their problem. Life still goes on the same for me. Haha.

Q13: The characters you love about yourself?
-I love to make people happy and spread joy! The satisfaction of bringing happiness to others and helping those in need is just so great!

Q14: The characters you hate about yourself?
-The dark emo side of me.

Q15: The most ideal person you wanna be?
-Jay Chou! Or i think maybe myself. Originality is best! =)

Q16: For people that care and love you, what would you wanna say to them?
-Thanks a lot for all the care and love, i'll definitely repay you the same way right? Haha. =p

Q17: Pass this quiz on to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you...(this is in random order)
- Please ah! Oh my gosh. I had a hard time doing this already then still have to make others suffer with me ah. -.-

1.Rachel Chua =)
2. Mark Shi =)
3.Noel Ong =)
4.Zheng Jie =)
5.Zuo Fu =)
6. My sister! =)
7. Yan Yee =)
8.Weiru =)
9.Bennedict =)
10.Hwee Chin =)

Q18: Who is 6 having a relantionship with?
-Oh man. Why did it turn out to be my sis! Erm, no one currently? Haha. But i'm not sure about in the future. =p

Q19: Is number 9 a female or a male?
-Male. Duh, i wonder if there's any female by that name. Haha.

Q20: If number 7 & 10 are together, would it be good?
-Two girls cant be together! They are not lesbians plus both of them have their boyfriends already.

Q21: What is number 2 studying about?
-Studying in secondary school, sec3. 7 different subjects to cover.

Q22: When was the last time you chatted with number 3?
-Hmm. Yesterday? LOL.

Q23: What kind of music genre does number 8 like?
-Wa. Tough one. I think a mixture of classical, and maybe.. I'm seriously not sure!

Q24: Does number 1 have siblings?
-Nope.

Q25: Would you woo number 3?
- Oh my gosh! He's a guy! Definitely not coz i'm not gay!

Q26: How about number 7?
-She's attached happily to her boyfriend already! I dont wanna be an asshole. Haha.

Q27: Is number 4 single?
-Yea. Trying to jio somebody. Haha.

Q28: What is the surname of number 5?
-Oh man! I'm not sure! I always call him by his name, never by surname!

Q29: What is the hobby of number 10?
-Hmm. I'm not too sure. Ah i know! Maybe watching chinese dramas!

Q30: Do number 5 & 9 get along?
-Yea not bad. I introduced number 5 to number 9. Haha.

Q31: Where is number 2 studying at?
-East View Sec

Q32: Talk something casually about number 1...
-My super cute small girl aka apple! =)

Q33: Have you tried developing feelings for number 8?
-Hello?! She's my "sister" who's much older than me!

Q34: Where does number 9 live?
-Hmm near paya lebar.

Q35: What colour does number 4 like?
-Never asked him such a lame question before. -.-

Q36: Are number 1 & 5 best friends?
-Nope, they dont even know each other!

Q37: Does number 1 have any pet?
-Yes, hamsters!

Q38: Is number 7 the sexiest person in the world?
-Nope, she's not. Luckily i gave a wise answer or her boyfriend is gonna kill me!

Q39: What is number 10 doing now?
-Sleeping i think? She lives in a country with a different time zone! It's the END OF O LEVELS!!! =)

Time to party everyone! I have all the freedom in the world now. Haha. I'm so looking forward to grad night on thursday. I think i'll look like one of the most outstanding ones coz of the way i dress! While everyone is in formal clothing, i'm gonna dress in a semi-formal manner! I'm gonna be wearing a stylish jacket and shirt and a jeans! Plus there will be many 'ornaments' dangling around my clothes so i think people will look at me as though i'm an alien from Mars. Haha! Dont care ah! Let people think whatever they want to. I am who i am! =) Counting down to the end of o's! My last paper would be on the 11th of november so it's coming soon! I'm gonna be so busy after my exams with work. I'll be taking up a few jobs and i'll try to pick up some new skills hopefully. Haha. I'm currently scouting for jobs and i've shortlisted a few. There's a job in a film company, a restaurant waiter and maybe a salesperson?


Da jie weiru is the manager in the film company so i think i should have no problem getting in although she said that it's gonna be a tough one and is time constraining. However, i think i would be able to learn to work in an office environment and pick up a few film editting skills. Haha. Sounds cool eh?


Next is the restaurant job. I have a few options actually. Weiru offered to help me get a job at the bistro bar where she used to work. My good friend Jeremy also said he has an uncle who could try getting us a job in a restaurant in the Marina Mandrin Hotel. This leaves me with two options to pick from.



Hmm lastly i think i may take up a job as a salesperson. Maybe at Isetan or Giodarno? Haha. Or maybe as an IT products presenter at an IT show. I heard that i may be able to earn lots of cash through commission! Cash isn't the issue here anyway. -.- I'm finding a job during the holidays to get some extra pocket money plus get the experience of working!




Shall end my post here. All the best people! Gambette for the last few days! =D