The clouds seem darker today and my breathing seem more heavy. Every gust of wind seem to be an irritant and my foot seem to trudge against the floor with every step that i take.

It's not because i'm feeling emotional. I'm just disappointed in myself for making the wrong judgements sometimes. I was feeling ecstatic last night and my spirits have dropped to zero the next day. Why couldn't i have shut my trap and kept everything to myself? I'm always looking for a perfect solution to everything. That is why i'm always seeking advice on different matters all the time. But in some cases, advices are not needed and it's really up to you to test the waters out there for yourself.


One more thing is that i value honesty more than anything else. It's against my principles to break a promise or have a breach of trust. It's okay if others may lie to me, but i hate lying to others and i hate lying to myself all the more. Trust is something to be gained over time and once it has been lost, it may be difficult to salvage.


I guess enough has been said and i'm still taking my time to repent over the stuff i have done. I know a million sorrys wont be enough but i'll still say a last sorry here from the bottom of my heart.


You've captivated my heart so i wont let you go just yet.

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