I'm down again. This time i'm down with flu and a slight fever. And yea, i'm so tired of everything happening around me. I feel so drained and exhausted and i felt exactly like how i felt way back on 26th of August 2009.


Nothing seems to be going smoothly for me. I was alone and really bored at home for the whole morning and afternoon. And the moment my brother came home after school, he scolded me for no reason. Then came my flu and fever. I really hate being sick especially when there's no one there to care for or take care of you. I remember the days when my baby was down with fever, flu or even a slight headache. I would postphone all plans and rush down just to be by my baby's side to take care of her. Sometimes i just feel so lost and sad that why do things always turn out the bad way for me no matter how hard i try?


First it's my parents. Next it's my siblings. Then it's my job. And now i'm starting to have problems in my relationship. It really feels as if it's fated that everything for me would turn out bad. I guess maybe i haven't done enough or haven't put in enough effort for everything. I suddenly start to feel that everything and everyone is drifting further and further away from me. My parents, my siblings, my job, my friends and even my darling baby who i love the most.



All i need now is for someone to show me and tell me that i'm loved. Maybe it's the lack of love that i'm feeling that's causing me to feel so drained. Can someone out there please show me some love and care?