It's been 9 months. 9 months isn't a really long period of time, but it's still something to be proud of nevertheless. You have been my first girlfriend and i've loved you with all my heart. I was really dedicated to you and did everything you loved and changed the bad habits of mine that you didn't like. Though i gotta admit that there were times when i felt really hurt by your actions or really stressed up, i always told myself that i'll overcome whatever obstacles there may be coz as long as you love me with all your heart, your love is my motivation to move on.

On the fateful night of 15th April 2010, you sent me a text message saying that you wanted to break up with me and go back to being single. I've felt that something was amiss before that coz it was the first time that we didn't meet up in a whole week already during the 9 months. If you were really busy, i would have been understanding and let you get along with your stuff. But truth is, you wasn't. You claimed that the reason for the break up was because i didn't give you enough freedom. Now all of us know that isn't the actual reason. The real reason is because you have been seeing another guy behind my back even when we were still together. And to think i actually regarded this guy as my 'brother'. He's not even fit to be my friend to snatch away my then girlfriend away from me man. If he was gonna have a fair competition with me, i would be fine with it. But what i hated most was that this punk actually dated you behind my back! The both of you even got into physical contact when we were still together. Sometimes i wonder what was on your mind when you cheated on me, held his hand, hugged him or kissed him. Was there no regard for me as your boyfriend who treated you so nicely for the past 9 months at all? Even if you were to break up on me and get together with him, shouldn't you at least owe me an explanation on account of our past 9 months relationship? Ditching me aside and breaking up with me over sms is a total insult to me.

And after breaking up with me, you didn't make it clean. You still claimed that you loved and missed me and still wanted me to treat you the same and still continue loving you. You're splitting your love into half for both of us and you expect me to give you 100% of my love? That's just bullshit. I told myself that i could get over all these and take it that nothing happened and try to invest my love for you all over again. I could take it that nothing happened between you and him and take it that you did all these in just a moment of folly. Yes, i would have agreed to patching back with you if you asked me and you set your mind to love me wholeheartedly and not come into contact with him. I was really forgiving by giving you this chance. But you took an even greater advantage of me and even dared to raise the suggestion of spending alternate days with me. One day with me and the next for him. Though you claim you love me, your actions and words don't show it. There's no sincerity at all.



And you don't have to worry about me or pity me for being single now while you still have that guy by your side. Coz i've hardened up my heart and found my new direction in life. I've decided to enlist for my army and after National Service, i'm going back to America for my university education and maybe staying there for good. I'll start my life afresh there. And as for me being lonely and sad all by myself, you don't have to worry about that too. Coz i'm sure there are many friends out there who are concerned about me and showing me love.


What i wanna say is that i've moved on with life. I'm sure you are too by spending time with him and your other friends. From the standpoint of just a friend now, i'll wish you may he be the perfect one for you and last long. Take good care of yourself and be more independent coz you've always been reliant. Stand up for your own rights.

It has been a wonderful 9 months with you and i've finally experienced what it's like to be in a relationship at the age of 17. 9 months has passed and you're now my first ex girlfriend. I've become afraid of believing in love again because of the hurt you caused deep down inside. Hope the devil haunting me is able to be expelled from my heart one day. And hope i'll find someone who loves me as much as i love her and appreciate me for who i am one day.



With love,
Justin.____________________________________________________________________